C'est La Vie

most people. almost all people, live their lives in mediocrity. i have nothing against that. its just that i dun want to be normal. i dun want to be mediocre. i don't have to be famous or insanely rich or whatever. i just want to live knowing i was something and not nothing. if i had only one life i'd want to be something great. its not a dream or a wish, more like a plan. like my future was written in the stars. I AM going to be someone someday. and all the weakminded people in the world can eat their socks when that day comes. Sometimes i wonder why people are so weak. why they behave the way they do, or how they react when emotional. Im not right all the time but least i keep my head where it should be.

vices, everyone has a vice. i believe having a vice is not as bad as not KNOWING you have a vice. some people can be completely delusional about knowing their strengths and weaknesses. I know my vices. i know my strengths. so don't come to me with your holier than though attitude and lecture me about what u think is right or wrong. seriously. screw you. i'm the master of my life, commander of my ship. you want me to do something against my wishes you'd better have a gun to my head.

people say im a christian cuz i go to church. seriously i think religion is higly overated. I dun consider myself a christian at all. i just believe in God. Screw the Nicene creed. i wanna believe what i wanna believe. it doesn't have to be what you believe. so get outta my face with you rules about being a christian because sometimes i suspect your religion is a mere....facade, a face to put on every sunday to get along with other masked people. all of you pretending you're god damned holy but seriously i can see. i can see there's more to your belief than you think there is. God is your comfort zone. you treat him that way. do you really believe in him? i doubt most of you really do. Credit to those who really love their God be it muslim, hindu or christians, whatever, some people really want to worship their God and live god fearing lives. well good for you no objections against that.

I know a family who really seem nice and dandy and all. like the textbook kinda Good god fearing person. but recently they have had gone tough times, with the mother having some fatal diesease. and i just thought, that would really suck wouldn't it? i mean if i spent so much time with God, hoping that he would bless me a little you know? and my wife just gets this brain cancer or shit like that....i mean....that would really suck right? plus she's like....young. what the hell. People like me should die young. people who don't give two cents about their lives. who WISH to die young. but hell...im still here. Bad things happen to good people.

C'est la fucking Vie